I don't NEED no man!

I have been quoted saying, "I don't NEED my husband, I WANT him". 

When I have said this, I am usually judging another woman for saying that she needs her man around.  Yes, I judge, I'm sorry, I'm trying not to.  I have thought that neither one of us really NEED each other but that we just WANT to be together.  For the most part that is true.  However, my husband can be a huge pain in my @ss sometimes and I know I am certainly not easy to live with!  I started to put some real thought into it and it made me realize:  I NEED MY HUSBAND!

It isn't for the reason that I can't do things on my own.  I can take out the trash (although I won't), I can fix most things around the house, I can/and do build all new furniture we buy, I can kill the spiders running up our living room wall (again something I usually won't do),  I work and bring home income, and I am not afraid to get dirty.  I am certainly capable if god forbid, anything ever took him out of our lives. 

The reasons I discovered as to why I do in fact need him were pretty profound and I honestly can't believe I overlooked their importance for so long. 

I need him after a long day of toddler temper tantrums and chaos, when I'm literally about to pull my hair out.  I need him before I have a presentation to do at work and have butterflies in my stomach.  I need him when I hear a funny joke and I need to pass it on right away before I forget it.  I need him when I'm making a big decision and just can't decide.  I need him when I'm upset at someone (other than him of course).  I need him when I wake up scared in the middle of the night.  I need him with me to cheer for our favorite sports team when they play (Go Kings!).  I need him to encourage me when I get down on myself.  I need him to help me shop, even though when I ask his opinion I usually don't take it.  I just need him by my side, loving me. 

I don't need a man, I just need my man :) 

Working mom

I was lucky enough to have 2 years off after the birth of my daughter.  Just as we realized how crappy this economy is and that I would have to get back in the work force, whamo, I was pregnant again.  So I started a new job with a 7 week lima bean growing in my stomach.  I worked up until my 9th month of pregnancy and took a very nice, very fast, 3 month maternity leave.  Now that I'm back working I have realized some things.

• The temper tantrums that happen when I'm not home kinda make me laugh now
• I love singing in the car without a 2 1/2 year old yelling, "I don't like this song mommy!"
• The time I have at work, with real adult conversations, makes my heart happy
• I appreciate the Justin Bieber dance I get to do with my daughter after I get home
• I envy people whose alarms don't go off at 4:45am
• I value my family time a little more than I used to
• I feel prouder of myself and my accomplishments at work
• I realized that the way people see me and the way I see myself are very different at times; I need to take it easier on myself. 

Leaving babies home when you go anywhere can be emotionally challenging but in this case I can say it's not entirely a bad thing for any of us ;)

T minus 16 days until the BIG 3 0

For my first blog post I thought I should tell you exactly where I'm at in my life - then we can fill in all the gaps later. 

Right now I am 16 days from my 30th birthday, an age that I used to think was OLD, and not just old like your 4 year-senior cousin, I mean ancient.  When someone would say 30, I would think to myself, "Geez I never want to be 30, that means you are almost dead!"  Now that I'm here, well almost, I don't feel any older than I did then.  I feel more tired and not as silly or petty or self-consious or as emotional as I felt in my early 20s.  I feel stronger; stronger in my decisions, stronger in my relationships, and stronger in my ability to do whatever it is I feel like doing.  I have a relationship with my parents, a real, solid relationship.  I mean who would of thought I would someday like my parents?! 

I'm married to an amazing man that I actually knew in high school!  Never saw that coming!  Together we have 2 beautiful children - a 2 1/2 year old daughter and a 3 month old son.  They fill my days and nights with more love than I ever knew possible.... but more on all of them later.

I work part time and get this, I actually love my job.  Weird huh?  When I was 21 I loathed getting up for work.  I wished to win the lotto or to marry for money or something that would prevent me from the awfulness that work was.  I took 2 years off with my daughter but as we all know, times are tough, so here I am, back in the work force and loving every minute - well maybe not EVERY minute lol 

Hmmm... Maybe this 30 thing isn't so bad?